You set your sights high and you achieve a dream that would have seemed impossible a few months earlier. You have become conscious of your true spiritual identity and at the same time you have found the ability to relate to the material world. You find yourself in a realm where your guides can offer direct assistance. You hold in your hand the polished result of a long, difficult process of purification. Your psychic equilibrium is centered and is based on the principle of love.
You have prospered through persistence and fairness in the past. That is why you can rely on both yourself and others once you have asked for what you need.
I've been moving around a lot lately, regarding my upcoming gig. Greenhills (oooh, Promenade), Megamall (holy shit, I love the way it's cleaned up after all this years), Sta. Rosa Laguna (hahaha sa uulitin!), Divisoria (potah makalimutan daw ba ang Tutuban Center?), the brand new SM Mall of Asia (wow, Powerbooks & Fully Booked in just one floor? may iceskating rink pa & a killer cinema? SAN KA PA! I'm so there!), Blue Wave, Marina (at Roxas Blvd cor. Buendia), Rockwell. I'm fucking tired, though. I never expected this would be harder than I thought. I'm off to Tiendesitas tomorrow. But I'd like to thank S.P. Lovecraft Productions in cooperation with The Doll House for everything.
Unfortunately one of the kittens already died. I'm afraid another one's on its way back to kitty heaven as well. If at least one of the brood survives, I'll be a happy mom.
While thinking about potential flyer details for my upcoming stint (details to follow), I came across this promotional brochure:
Life is full of choices.
I can choose up to wake up early or to sleep in. I can choose regular over decaf coffee. I can choose to meet new people or to spend time with old friends. I can choose these sandals over those boots to fit my favorite jeans. But I can also make a choice that really changes my day.
I can choose to be beautiful.
Beauty is power. It is compelling & inspiring. It can be subtle & quiet yet always captivating.
Beauty complements my life's passions. Each day being beautiful takes me from the ordinary to the extraordinary.
Hehe. Yeah, right. But the price for being beautiful can be horrifying, really. I think beauty doesn't have to be always dependent on artifice or symmetry. Or maybe I'm just sourgraping because I can't afford to be "beautiful" everyday? Not when I'm commuting with a tendency to sleep amidst the long ride back home & a dingy suburban environment to make pakikipagsapalaran with. Not when I've already got major frown lines among other stupid things to acquire from age that moisturizers or whatnot can't diminish. (Stretch marks become less visible with regular full-body massages, though! ^_^) Not when reality has to take hold of the reins sometimes & one has to endure wa poise moments with much dignity as possible, like blisters on your feet from uncooperative strappy sandals or an upset stomach just before a major event or like what happened to me last year: puffy eyes & sleeplessness while mourning for my departed sister but everyone was telling me to fix myself up for the dignitaries connected to my parents who'll be visiting us to offer condolences (AMPOTAH PALA KAYO EH, SINO BA NAMANG GAGANAHANG MAG-MEKAP PA KUNG GANUN ANG NANGYARE SA INYO? NALILIGO NAMAN AKO AH, AMBANGO PA NG BODY SCRUB KO!) Sometimes one just has to hopelessly be oneself, supposed flaws & all. True beauty is radiated from within, anyway. How? Don't ask me, as I could care less. I think I have more pride than vanity. But if you'd come see me sometime, perhaps we can talk about it. (WAHAHA what a segue!) Oh, well, just do as I say, not as I do. :P
You know what is sheer torture? Having to endure 2-3 days' worth of kittens mewing out loud that just lost their mom to an inexplicable death. After losing my tomcat Sophie (I'm so much luckier with male pets, seriously! WAHAHA) last year (he's still alive, though, prowling the neigborhood) because I neglected my motherly duties to the spoiled bastard after my kid sister passed away :( who was also his mother-figure, I didn't feel like taking care of stray unweaned kittens in need anymore. Especially when Cody died a few months before my kid sister. It's a good thing Sunspot (another tomkitten I saved even if his mom Elena was here freeloading for sometime) still lives here, & I regret not taking care of him as much as I looked after Sophie. My brother & I just wanted to throw the damn new kittens away, assuming they were too little = underdeveloped to be attended to. But when our household help showed the adorable tiny fuckers last night & gladly announced that she was able to feed them a few hours earlier, I was so relieved. I hope they'd survive. I really want them to. I can't handle news of deaths anymore, anyway. They practically look like my other estranged cat Panther, Sunspot's half-brother. :D I sure hope I can rear them kahit papano.
Wow, funny how the things I'd be rambling about a few days ago come up as discussion material for other people, hehe.
Here's something I nicked from some online community — I think I need to remember it all the more these days, lest I'd lose my sanity completely:
Each day is filled with opportunities to make the world a better place. In any situation there are things you can do to make life more positive and fulfilling for everyone.
You may not always receive recognition for doing so, but that doesn't really matter. Because you, and everyone else, will still benefit from the positive contributions you make to the world.
When you are greeted with rudeness or indifference, give back genuine courtesy, respect and understanding. Though it may seem more natural to be rude in return, that creates no value for anyone.
When someone hurts or disappoints you, find a way to respond with forgiveness, kindness and peacefulness. Though you have experienced pain, take care not to prolong that pain.
Ironically, the best thing you can do for yourself is to move beyond your own selfish impulses and concerns. Seek to make the world a better place for everyone, and in so doing you'll discover the most effective ways to benefit your own life.
With your thoughts, your actions, your attitude and your spirit, you can make the world a better place, every day, in every situation. Get in the habit of doing just that, and you'll savor the rich rewards.