Although you may be feeling something deeply, your tendency is to analyze it away, thus minimizing its importance. Feelings are what they are. You don't need to do anything about them. But try to avoid the temptation to intellectualize your feelings or you will find the inner conflict developing a life of its own.
God, maybe I should stop thinking at this point. But the only way for me to do so is to SLEEP. Thing is, I'm too frazzled to sleep as much as I need to.