Despite all your rage, you're still just a rat in a cage. Get out of your box. You will find that influences from other people are apt to cause some serious transformations in your general frame of mind. Let your belief systems become loose and let them morph into other frames of mind. Consider new ways of living. Do things to get out of the streamlined social construction of how you should live your life.
Dammit. Life is unfair. Why can't I just DIE right now?